Honor: 54 [ Give / Take ]
19 entries this month
21:50 Feb 22 2012
Times Read: 565
1. The house to myself for a good bit of time.
2. Being able to clean without a four year old bringing out more toys and refusing to help pick them up.
3. A nice warm fire going. I love to cuddle up beside it in the chair when I get chilled. =) So lovely.
4. Listening to music when I don't have to worry about it specifically being the "Aurora Safe" folder/playlist.
5. Not having to fight over the computer today. I'm supposed to leave some certain dragons up on the screen.
6. The things my Grandmama taught me while she was alive. I'm making Aurora a plastic canvas purse for Easter from Mommy. It's going to have "Princess Aurora" on the front.
7. Knowing that in our closet, I have the afghan that my Grandmama made for Aurora to give to her later on when she won't try to tear it up.
07:47 Feb 22 2012
Times Read: 570
Today's (the 21st). =)
1. A couple of days without Aurora when she absolutely won't listen and is being bossy and mean. O_O
She's upset that Brett's been cutting and splitting wood so much lately. She's been starting to take it out on me though.
2. That even though my dad died, my mom found someone to remarry that makes her happy and that treats her right. That's priceless for me to see.
I love my stepdad and heck, I've known him all my life. My dad would have been happy with them being together. ♥ My mom, my dad, him, and his wife were all best friends for 31 years before they started dating.
3. Being able to watch horror movies after having nightmares. They have a calming effect on me.
07:38 Feb 22 2012
Times Read: 572
So this is for the other day (20th) that I didn't log to paste it.
1. Kisses
2. Brett coming in from cutting wood to lend me a hand and/or a bit of a break from taking care of Aurora.
3. Having a good relationship with my mom.
21:12 Feb 20 2012
Times Read: 578
Yesterday in the early morning, I woke up from a horrible nightmare. It was really confusing.
I actually woke Brett up and immediately he knew something was really, really, really wrong. Heh, he's dense as hell but he knew something was up.
I just couldn't seem to calm down and last night I was quite terrified to go to fall asleep. I hate when I feel like this. I shouldn't fear going to sleep like I'm going to catch my death.
The nightmare... it was about Courtney. That's enough said here.
But I just didn't feel like logging on here to copy over my three things. So for yesterday...
1. Comfort from a loved one.
2. To be able to calm down without an anxiety attack.
3. Distractions throughout the day.
I should be able to log in a bit to put the ones for today. I haven't had time to think much about it up to this point.
07:45 Feb 19 2012
Times Read: 582
1. Miracles. The idea of some miracles existing.
2. The extra years I had with my dad since he almost died on us on Christmas Eve.
3. A decent sleep for the first time in at least a couple of weeks. 5 1/2 hours =)
4. Sleeping in my car after the ride home for about 30 minutes. I miss sleeping in my car in the middle of winter. I used to that year after getting my car.
5. Getting to spend time and share a sub with Nala. It's been forever since I've made that cat do any kind of tricks.
07:36 Feb 18 2012
Times Read: 586
1. Medicinal advances in society. Where would we be without them? I'm really grateful for my migraine medication I had to take in the afternoon yesterday. It's doing a lot better.
2. My daughter's safety.
3. Restful sleep when it finds it's way to me.
4. Fishes getting better after being infected by ich. We lost the two new algae eaters though who infected the others. I guess it wasn't meant to be.
02:06 Feb 17 2012
Times Read: 592
1. To decorate a pink tree with my daughter for the third time. This time for Easter... (♥) and laughing when she tells me, "Mommy, it's not beautiful enough! Don't turn it on yet. It's not beautiful." ROFL!
2. Being able to watch the fish swim around. I love my Mr. Fishy.
3. My heelcords feeling sore after wearing steel toe boots for days in a row so I don't walk on my tiptoes anymore. If it helps keep me down, I'll gladly deal with the discomfort instead of surgery and three months in casts again.
4. Dead trees to burn. Whenever we have to cut one live tree, I feel horribly guilty even though we need it to stay warm in the winter season.
5. The ability to plant more trees, flowers, and different plants around the outside of the house, inside, and around the properties. =)
6. Apple Juice. Yum.
03:18 Feb 16 2012
Times Read: 596
1. When I've had an anxious day and know that Brett will be home soon.
2. Healing. Being able to heal and healthy enough to do so. It's like magic and sometimes freaks me out a bit to be honest.
3. Watching television programs that I want to watch... priceless when Princess Aurora dominates the television most of the time. Haha!
4. Kitties to pet to make me feel better.
02:39 Feb 15 2012
Times Read: 599
1. For the opportunity to take allergy pills after an allergy test. =)
2. Not being allergic to anything in the basic test except for dust and dust mites.
3. My mommy and stepdad taking Aurora for the night so I can spend some time with Brett alone for V-Day. ♥
4. My crotch and bum feeling better after the lube incident. O_O Soreness, an annoying itch like I'm raw, redder than a heart on this day, and it hurts to sit up. But it's feeling SO much better. *sighs* Relieving. =)
5. Rain instead of snow and ice.
6. The kindness and awesomeness on UniFaction. It seems to brighten my day when I log on there to see everyone being nice and such. It's an unusual place to retreat where I haven't witnessed any drama since I've joined.
03:29 Feb 14 2012
Times Read: 602
1. To be able to say I've made it through the past and I know I'm able to make it through the future.
2. Being able to wake up from nightmares.
3. The gift of discovering what I did to survive, the good and the bad.
4. To have the chance to cope and heal.
5. To always have the chance to change the things I don't like or approve of in myself.
04:08 Feb 13 2012
Times Read: 603
1. Seeing the glow of life growing inside a young mother. Beautiful.
2. Family. I love my now aunts. I have 15 aunts and uncles from my stepdad and haven't met half of them.
3. A break away from my daughter with my mom and the girls of the family.
... Now if only today wasn't Sunday and we could have went to the bar. My mom and I don't like beer. YUCK!
4. Being able to say I'm happy to not have a big ole baby belly. =)
5. To know that soon enough, Tuesday morning, I'll be getting this allergy test done and over with. If it is my cats, I'm hopeful I can get the shots or figure something out.
10:33 Feb 12 2012
Times Read: 610
1. Going to bed early next to someone that makes me feel safe and forgetting everything else.
2. People's kindness even though at times it seems rare. UniFaction is a daily stop for me. It makes me feel so lovely to see people being nice to others and no drama whores.
3. Advice. Even if I don't think the advice is for me, it makes me feel so special someone took time to offer it, especially when they have a family and so many other things they could be doing.
=]
I'm heading back to bed now. I'm replying messages in the morning. I want another 90-180 minutes of sleep. I'm selfish like that.
Oh and...
4. When I don't wake up from breathing problems when I sleep flat next to my Meanie Mouse. It makes my heart super happy! ♥
(Thank you Aurora and Ni Hao, Kai-lan)
03:13 Feb 11 2012
Times Read: 617
1. Honesty. Trust and honesty really go hand in hand. =) But I've been raised with the belief that you're only as good as your word and I'm pretty sure that's one belief that will stick with me for the rest of my life.
2. Faith. When the world looks dim and gloomy, we always have faith. I'm not the most religious person but I do believe there is a God.
3. Courage. It's something I've been living more with the past few years even though it was more part of my life before Brett was in it. I didn't back down from many things. I had courage to do the things I wanted. Then when I got pregnant, towards the end of the pregnancy, that changed. I'm slowly learning to embrace a healthy dose of courage again... even when it means to face my fears to get pass my anxiety disorder. =)
07:34 Feb 10 2012
Times Read: 623
Earlier I was spending time with my Meanie Mouse... gosh it feels good calling him that like normal. =)
But here's my list:
1. My hearing and my youth. It's been beyond bothersome to have to ask people to repeat themselves several times in a row this past week. I'm so glad it's starting to be corrected with ear drops.
2. My sight, taste, heck, all of my senses. =) It's hard not to take them for granted when you were born with them but to think of everything we would be without if we lost the use of one, just one... is downright frightening. To know someone who has is really enlightening on life. I hope to never meet another person who has their senses and loses one. It's a sad thing to see.
3. Trust. The unbelievable gift of trust. Enough said.
02:14 Feb 09 2012
Times Read: 628
1. To know no matter how bad a day seems to go, there is always another day on the horizon.
2. To have internet access, even if it is dial up. Heh, people don't realize how much of a blessing it is sometimes.
3. To have some way to express my thoughts and emotions.
04:59 Feb 08 2012
Times Read: 631
1. I'm grateful for beauty of nature.
2. The joy of making Valentine's Day cards with my daughter for special people. =)
3. Having a little extra money for when neither parent wants to cook and everyone wants stuffed crust pizza... and there's enough the next day for lunch. We get it once every three or four months. It's special like that. She's been super good and we've all been getting over being sick.
4. The comfort of a change jar in case something comes up. *looks over at it* I'm thinking of sneaking ones in there once in a while. =) Without Brett or Aurora's knowledge.
5. Hungry, healthy, happy, comforting, joyful, pet-able, and understanding pets.
04:59 Feb 07 2012
Times Read: 634
1. I'm so very glad I had the time to get to know you.
2. I'm happy the memories I have are mine and no one can take them from me. They're my treasure of the past in a way.
3. I'm ever so grateful to feel so empowered by memories. No matter the day, I can crack a smile or laugh a little remembering the times that have passed by.
I love you, Courtney. ♥ February 7, 2010
4. I'm grateful for the knowledge of knowing my dad is no longer feeling pain after years upon years of constantly hurting. I'm grateful for knowing that my friends and family are no longer suffering through the cancer that ended their lives. I'm beyond grateful in believing that they've each left pain and diseases behind.
06:53 Feb 06 2012
Times Read: 636
Three things.
1. I'm ever so thankful for my daughter's company. =) She's been gone for two days. It's been way too quiet and the internet is just not fun when the computer is not being fought over. O_O Playfully, of course!
2. My Brett Brett and our relationship. It's not the best and I'll be the first to admit that. We've helped each other through some hard times where we would let no other tread. No matter what has happened in the past, we've been trying to make this work for our future because we want to be together. We love each other. That's what counts.
3. Love. The different types. It's everywhere.
When my dad died, the woods were my ultimate love. There's no friendship like that of a tree. I stand by that statement to this day. No tree will quit listening, will turn it's back, will walk away, or disappear. It seemed to be the perfect solution to my problem for the longest time of needing someone to talk to. I had to find that special tree though.
I meant to post this from my OpenOffice document earlier but forgot to. I apologize for my lateness. I've been talking to some people and dealing with a couple of things on here.
I'll more than likely make an entry about that in my main section later. =)
08:56 Feb 04 2012
Times Read: 654
Since I've been depressed, I'm going to do Joli's challenge. It'll definitely help. I used to something like it but lost my notebook in the move.
1. A gift of a caring mother and stepfather.
2. A gift of my daughter's laughter.
3. The gift of words written of loved ones no longer here to encourage us to be all we can be.
♥
This is going in my section that I had used for dreams since I haven't used it in forever. I don't feel like making myself feel vulnerable in doing as such. Most of my dreams include things from my childhood, my dad, Courtney, my fears, and what's to come.
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